Diary of a deckbitch…

My life on a webpage…

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Oooo well done, you found my secret page.

This is where i rant about me.  The person i see in the mirror.  At the moment it is a fat blob, shapeless, deeply unatractive and to be honest, repulsive.  Im overweight, actually, to use the highly technical term, im obese, if not very obese.

When i eat, i feel guilty, so then i starve myself, then when i am totally hungry i pig out, then i feel guilty, so i starve myself, then i pig out…..get the idea.

I have been fat since i was 11.  It ruined my growing up, imagine going out shopping with your friends where the shops only go to a size 14 at most.  So i stopped going out with them.  These days i get the stares, people eye you with disgust, contempt and hatred.  They assume you are stupid, lazy and ignorant.  Try eating a sandwich walking along the street and you are nearly vaporised by the death ray stares. 

So there you go.